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A Birthday Reflection: A Dialogue with Every Version of Ifa

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Happy birthday to the baby, toddler, teenager, and every version of Ifa. Thank you to little Ifa, who had to learn to be strong earlier than she should have. To little Ifa, who was often confused, afraid, or felt she had to understand the adult world too soon. You did not always know what was happening, but you kept growing. Thank you to teenage Ifa, who was once fragile, insecure, angry, disappointed, and felt not good enough. For all the nights when you questioned yourself. For all the phases when you wanted to be understood, but instead had to learn how to save yourself. Thank you to adult Ifa, who has gone through loss, fear, academic pressure, loneliness in a foreign country, failures that felt personal, and days when life felt too heavy. Thank you for still choosing to keep going, even when no one truly knew how difficult the road was for you. This year, I have learned to be more grateful. Grateful for the things I managed to overcome, for the good people who came into ...

Reflection on 2025: Learning Not to Force Things

The most important thing I learned in 2025 was simple but hard to do: don’t force things, let go, and forgive yourself. Ever since I was young, I’ve believed in hard work. I always thought that if we really try, almost nothing is impossible. With enough effort and dedication, we should get what we want. This belief has shaped how I’ve lived for many years. But in 2025, I started to see things differently. Not every big effort gives us the results we hope for. Sometimes, trying to force things just brings more loss and regret. I realized that life isn’t just about working harder. It’s also about knowing when to keep going and when to let go. Near the end of 2025, I learned what it really means to let go. I had never been robbed while living in Indonesia, but it happened to me in the Netherlands. My new phone was stolen, and with it, I lost important thesis data that hadn’t been backed up to iCloud. What did it feel like? A mix of shock, sadness, and surrender. At one point, I even found...

Level Up Your Life in my 30++

Seorang teman menyarankan untuk kembali menulis di platform ini. Platform yang identik dengan Ifa dan berhasil branding dengan url-nya yang unik. Here, I am : Geographer and a spatial analyst who loves writing and traveling very much.  Kembali ke rumah ini, dan menemukan draft ini di arsip almari yang berdebu. Judulnya adalah Level Up Your Life in 2020, kosong. Mungkin saat itu aku sedang bersemangat menata hidup sebagai anak rantau pemula. Waktu bergulir tanpa menamatkan episodenya di tahun 2020. Menjelang 2023 aku mulai melanjutkan draft ini. Namun, ternyata hingga pertengahan 2025 draft ini belum juga publish. So, this is my early birthday gift, refleksiku terhadap apa yang ku alami di usia kepala tigaku.  Tahun 2023, adalah titik balik dari kejenuhan hidupku dan ditahun tersebut aku memulai memiliki target yang spesifik.  Spesifik dan aku berani menuliskannya di salah satu platform media sosialku yang rahasia. Sungguh dua prestasi besar, berani berangan dan berani...

Taliabu Series : Awalnya mager, akhirnya kangen

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Berawal dari telepon salah satu dosen di suatu siang pada Juli 2016, berakhir dengan bergabungnya aku dengan tim Universitas Gadjah Mada yang sedang melakukan kerjasama pengembangan wilayah dengan Pemerintah Kabupaten Pulau Taliabu, Maluku Utara.  Lokasi Kabupaten Pulau Taliabu (Taliabu) Ifa Meilyana Sari, 2018 Taliabu adalah kabupaten termuda di Provinsi Maluku Utara. Kabupaten ini adalah kabupaten hasil pemekaran dari Kabupaten Kepulauan Sula. Letaknya ada di Provinsi Maluku Utara paling barat. Zona waktunya juga seru. Taliabu menjadi lokasi pergantian wit ke wita dan aku mengalami sendiri kejadian dimana jam hpku berubah zona (ke desa sebelah suuu ganti WITA lol) Darurat Taliabu Troops Tim kami terdiri dari para asisten tenaga ahli sekaligus surveyor yang terdiri atas 6 laki-laki dan 5 perempuan. Sebelas orang tersebut terdiri dari tim yang mengerjakan identifikasi bencana; renstra SKPD; masterplan pendidikan; RPJMD dan penyusunan database jalan dan jemb...